Dear Old Self
A confrontational letter that turns masked fear into a map back to the present.
TO DEAR OLD SELF
Got something for ya🙃
Do you know how you hate emotions…
BY WRITING YOU CAN FINALLY FEEL ALL THOSE EMOTIONS YOU FLED.🙃
INTELLECTUALIZE EVERYTHING.
THE CONSTANT BATTLES YOU FIGHT EVEN BEFORE YOU PUT YOUR LEGS ON THE COLD CRUEL FLOOR EARLY IN THE GOD-DAMN MORNING.
THE NIGHTMARE YOU BATTLE IN YOUR SLEEP AND THE MONSTERS YOU FACE WHEN YOU START TO LOSE SLEEP.
THE BEHEMOTH THAT STARES RIGHT INTO YOUR LOST EYES JUST WHEN YOU GET TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY.
RIGHT STARES DEEP INTO YOUR VERY HEART AND SOUL.
OTHER TIMES IT SCREAMS LOUD ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU REALISE THIS IS YOUR PRESENT REALITY.
OOH THE BOY CAN DREAM.
A BETTER FUTURE!!🙃
WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS?
TO CHASE AFTER A LIFE!
TO LOOK FOR WHAT HE WANTS.
WHAT THE HELL DOES HE EVEN WANT?
HE IS CRAZY RIGHT?
HE WANTS SOMEONE TO FINALLY SEE HIM.
ISN’T HE THE SAME GUY THAT WAKES UP AND CHOOSES WHAT MASKS SUITS THE DAY.
“IS IT THE BLUE ONE THAT I LOVE, THE RED THAT HELPS ME FOCUS.”
HE TREASURES THEM AND CLEANS THEM EVERYDAY.
MAKES SURE THEY ARE NOT STOLEN AND TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM.
WHY NOT?
THIS IS SO BLOODY FUN.
DID YOU SEE HIS FACE WHEN WE AMBUSHED HIM.
HE WAKES UP SHOCKED AND SURPRISED AS THOUGH HE IS NOT ACCUSTOMED TO OUR DAILY VISITS.
OOH WOW. THIS JUST MAKES OUR DAY.
HAVE YOU SEEN HOW HE QUICKLY TAKES ON HIS MASK FROM HIS CLOSET.
HE THINKS THAT THEN WE CAN NOT RECOGNISE HIM LIKE ALL THOSE PEOPLE.
HOW FUNNY IT IS.
WE GAVE HIM ALL THOSE MASKS SO THAT HE CAN FEEL A SENSE OF SAFETY
AND WE CAN HAVE THIS FUN DAILY.
OOH WOW. DAMN
INTELLECT BECAME THE LENS THROUGH WHICH I AVOID MY EMOTIONS (THAT I COINCIDENTALLY AND SUPPOSEDLY HAD TO DEAL WITH).
WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO TO BOTH KNOW AND FEEL THAT YOU CANNOT HAVE WHAT YOU WANT
BUT WE BOTH KNOW THAT IS YOUR BIG WEAKNESS!!
TO TRY AND CONVINCE YOU THAT MAYBE IT WILL BE OK.
A REALISTIC PERSON.
ALRIGHT.
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